My life-story

Was in the shower just now and thoughts just came into my mind.

Example: sometimes it is not that our parents do not understand us, but do we give our parents a chance to understand our thoughts. People tend to complain parents do not understand how they feel or even “flow” with their thoughts. But ya, it is whether do we want to give them a chance to.

Sometimes we shout and scream at our parents, in our hearts we are angry and disappointed with our parents but do you know in our parents hearts they are really hurt. I always thought that i do not have a cool and fun family because my parents are busy with work and the house is so quiet everyday, but my parents work hard to give me pocket money, pay the utilities bill, give me money to buy clothes and even little things like paying for the car petrol as my dad always sends me to church no matter how late it is. Little did i know, little things such as writing a note to my mum before she went off to the airport early in the morning would have meant so much to her, putting a little note on my dad toothbrush saying ” have an awesome day ” would meant so much to him.

I remember my mum really fell ill and my heart was so devastated seeing her having high fever, lying in bed so weak, and i remember i prayed this everyday: “God if my mum is healed, i will cherish every moment i have with her” and indeed she is healed. Now i cherish my every moments with her and i know one day the whole family would come to my second home, Heart of God church and be saved. I am actually very excited to see them in church.

Haha.. i dont know why i feel so much now but maybe because i really learnt to cherish when i nearly lost something so dear to me. In fact without my mum inviting me to heart of God church 9years ago , without my dad without fail send me to church with my mum and bro early in the morning, i might not be in church. And i am really thankful to my parents. My mum is off on a holiday to overseas and though it has just been a few hours, i really miss her. cant wait for her to be back.

I WILL GIVE MY ALL TO HONOUR MY PARENTS!! HEHE

well ya that is my thoughts and decision… nites everyone or to the person whom reads this.

Not sure if the right move was made but i hope i did. History yet again repeats itself and it is such a chore, such a torture. Life could have been made much better but a wrong move or wrong words in a conversation could have made something that was already bad worst. Why cant people just keep to what they say they would do. It takes 2 hands to clap doesnt it? Just ranting my thoughts here and just venting it out. I am so lost i now do not know what to do at all. Holidays have just started and it is this time that i can sit down and think about my life. WHat has happened, how to solve and also what am i going to do in the future. So much emotions is raging in me.. got to go will update at night i suppose!

The pain of the past lingers. Tears roll down the cheeks and thougts run through the mind. Who wishes things t happen. But well it happened and it has passd by. Time heals wounds, but scars remain. I went through it and ya scars just remain.. sigh just feel so down and ya emotional i guess… well i am still human.. argh i hate these moments. I hate it. sobs…  =(

Came across photos of Henderson days and really miss all the peeps back in those days. Well i am so really happy that 2 of them will be coming. 2 of my closest friends back in those days. Jeremiah and Thaddeus, it has really been long since i have seen them and i cant wait to see them today. Thoughts just run through my mind at 5am in the morning. And it is a good thought. i guess tears would just roll down my cheeks when i see them. Cant believe this is actually happening. They are actually coming. It is really going to be a good 10th annivasary. For me, it is going to bring back so many good, old memories. Ever since i stepped in Heart of God church and left and taste the flavour of the world outside, Heart of God church is the place where i wanna be be it now or the future, there is no other place i would rather be than Heart of God church. It is my home.

Where would i be, whom would i have became without God, Pastors and leaders?

Ok off to sleep now, tmr is the biggest day ever man.. so many things are going to happen. TISSUE PAPER DAY haha.. well nights world see ya all tmr =)

I miss all the things i can do! missing serving as much as possible in cafe, hospitality or even just being in church. I feel so drained of my energy in exams. But well still got to go through it.. Therefore i am going to unset my drained of energy mindset and reset and i am so going to study hard with no laziness in mind and i am going to do my paper with faith.. wohoo

WITH GOD ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE AMEN!!!!

Time really fly past so quickly and many things have happened.. WHo knows what might happen tomorrow.. But i know my tomorrow is going to be amazing haha.. Wow wo..

Cant wait for exams to be over man.. I am going to do so much more for God in the house of God, haha!!

ok got to go back to studying.. Love the rain..

The weekend has finally arrived.. Time really fly past quickly. This coming week would be Heart of God church 10th annivasary and a wink of the eye it would be the 20th annivasary.. everything in the world seems so fast paced and things zoom pass or happen so fast. I am so happy that i am in this church and i will never trade anything to leave this church. It is where i was since young and it will be where i will be when i am old.. the future is so amazing isnt it?? wll for me it is haha.. wonder how i would have become if i am not where i am now. Maybe i would be hanging out along orchard road, going out of the house till late in the night? well my life seems so much filled and i am happy with what is happening in my life. Wohoo i am so so so excited about the future and just seeing in the thoughts how amazing it would be just makes me want to zoom right into it.. haha. ok i got to go but well my day was amaing….. Praying in my heart that melvin is alright.

-@lvin-

Love God, Love people, Love life, Love food hahaha…

Choir prac just finished and now, on to cafe clean up. tired but it is a good tired.. yupp haha.. email sent and it is awesome haha..

Pot luck and cg tomorrow is going to be exciting. cant wait for that too.. the biggest blast would be 10th annivasary.

I remember the times when i was in children church and time really flies now i am in Heart of God church for 10yrs already.. the future is indeed amazing.. wohoo..

I AM SO SO SO SO HAPPY!!!!

Woked up in the morning, on my laptop and had the best surprise in my life.. Felt really blessed and loved. Day started with studies and food and studies then on to choir and back to studies again.. Whom did i have my food with?? they are the same kakis that i had and they are as follows.. ryan, chengming, candy, desiree, candy’s friend and ryan’s friend.. haha.. and tell u something super auntie. Was in the supermarket today browsing around and i had the sudden urge to eat sardine and thus i went to that section.. and i saw 2 differenr prices. One of which was 1.25 and another was 50 cents and guess wad, the auntie factor in me rose up and i bought the 50 cents one haha.. okok.. i got to go back to my emails.. haha i love God, my parents, my Pastors and Heart of God church people.. chiaooooo haha..

-@lvin-

My day has ended.. nights peeps

My day started with an awesome lunch with ryan and candy.. Then to choir prac.. and i really cant wait to perform.. then have dinner witht he same bunch of people, including candy, ryan, cheng cheng, jackson and desiree… it was full of crapness man.. and i realised tht my day is all about eating haha.. tomorrow is going to be more awesome. cant wait for it.